i’m like drowning in homework and i’m tired af already. i’m so glad there’s no school tomorrow so i can finish the rest of this. ugh, i’m so scared for next year. i’m not taking any honors classes, only AP and pre-AP classes and i’m sooo scared i’m just gonna bomb everything. failure is one of, if not my worst fear. and i have such high standards for myself. i get really disappointed in myself if i get lower than 95% on a quiz or test or assignment. and if i get lower than a 98% on my report card in a marking period. i’m seriously driving myself crazy. i can’t help it though. i think i’m a perfectionist.
and i’m not saying that like anyone who gets lower than 95 on things is stupid. if an 80 or whatever is your best then that’s fantastic. but i know my best is a 100 and it’s really frustrating when i don’t get it. ugh. i’m going to have premature grey hair with this mindset. and my parents arent any help either. they think the same way as me, if not worse.